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.endings.

today is the official last day of summer, for me at least.

tomorrow i have to report back to school full time, and while the students don’t show up until the 27, gone are the days of laying in bed until 9:30…

with the start of the school year come many endings and new beginnings. i almost feel like this is the start of the new year more so then january.  and since i did not have my shit in a pile back in january (heck i did not have it all within a 10 mile radius) i am taking to now to start my new year resolutions!

while i will not be sharing my resolutions with you, i will tell you their theme.  i am on a quest to be more open and loving and free.

very bohemian of me. 

truthfully, while watching girls on HOB i realized that i saw way to much of myself in uptight marni and self absorbed hannah.  that is not who i want to be.  i want to be free like jess, i want to shed my uptight layer and become less judgmental of everyone, INCLUDING myself.

ie this moment:  (credit)

so along with the usuals of be more organized, make my bed, don’t snap at people, i am adding be less judgmental and more open loving and free.

to help me on this journey i am reading (at the suggestions of B) When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chödrön.  it is a very far cry from most of the literature i read and the first self helpy book i have been able to read more then a page of.  perhaps because this time it was i who decided to go on this journey.  for the first time it was not at another’s suggestion, or under anothers forceful hand.  regardless it talks a lot about balancing the good and bad in life and how you can not know the beauty of the good without knowing and acknolowing the pain of the bad.

exactly the message i need to start my new year.

i am also going to get my charka’s balanced.

because why not?

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.aparently.im.26?

i quite frequently have no idea how old i am.  i was born in october 1985 so i have yet to have my 2012 birthday.  making my exact age 26 and 10 months.  I recently told someone i was 24 and followed it up by making a remark about how 2010 is going.  clearly i have no idea what is going on in the real world.

i live my life in lala AMH land.

along with having absolutely no idea how old i am or what year it is; i look like i am about to embark on my junior year of high school so i can pull off any age between 18 and 24.  over 25 and people ask questions.  yes at 26 i still get CARDED EVERY time i order a drink (even though i drink at the same 3 spots religiously). perhaps its my indecision that causes me to get carded as i have moved on from my go to vodka gimlet (i was getting a bit too hammered) and have been better able to stomach beer so my options are wide open.

regardless of my youthful looks and lack of beauty routine need to change as a inch closer to 27.  we can blame my poor beauty routine on growing up a swimmer and having such bad acne that make up hurt my face but truthfully that was like 9 years ago… someones got to grow up.

and i have been TRYING!  i recently got my first set of highlights.  BLOND.

finished product:and again with the no makeup…

but now that we got the hair situation under control we (me and myself) are about to get this makeup situation under control.

so i have been following PIPMEGAN lead and watching lots of youtube videos on how to use my new sultra and how to do my makeup.  most of the bittys on youtube doing these tutorials seem to have been rejects from Real World and Teen mom; however, they know what is up on the make up/hair front.  perhaps that’s what they were doing while i was studying finance and getting my M.S.ed.

regardless hopefully this new me will bring me in to my 28th year a little more adult!

 

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.current.obsessions.

the past two weeks have been CRAZY.  its almost as if bailey knew that my life was going to take off and that i would be ok without him and he chose the perfect moment to move on.

my BIGGEST news is that i am moving!  i am not going very far just 5 doors down into a new apt and moving in with this guy:  (facebook)

which brings me to my

first obsession: MBP my new roommate, well house mate i guess.  we are bff’s and that is neat.

obsession 2: KOMBUCHAlike most things i refused to try this at first.  i looked into it a few years ago because bethany frankel was drinking it on her show.  then i saw the words fermented tea and i thought i would check myself.  i am currently in love with mystic mango and have tried cosmic cranberry which is a bit more vinegary and special than the mango.

OBSESSION 3: new sunglasses.  i have had the same sunglasses for about 2 years.  i left them at school on friday and had to drive ALL THE WAY TO SOUTH CAROLINA without them.  now i have to convince g-ma to take me to the mall (45 min away) to get some new ones.
thinking about getting these:seeing as i have to go to sunglass hut because the nearest nordstroms is back in charlotte and ill be DAMNED if i have to drive anywhere after the 9 hours it took me to get down here.

obsession 4: STRIPES

and yes i may just own all of these items (including the zebra) in the next few days

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Gramps

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Originally this post was going to be about the wild success of my st. Patrick’s day party.

Then tragedy struck.

Bailey’s stomach filled in the early afternoon. This is also called the bloat. If you remember the movie Marley and Me it happens to him and they are able to save him via surgery. Due to the severity of baileys condition and his old age I had to make the most difficult decision of my 26 years and end the life of my constant companion and Roommate.

Bailey is was my child. I spent 90% of my time with him and taking care of him and having to say good bye to him today was beyond difficult.

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The day started like another, he woke me up by blowing air in my face. We went for a potty walk and came back for breakfast. I went back to bed and a few hours later we went out for a poop. This is when trouble started. He started trying to vomit in the corner of the family room. I quickly ushered him onto the hardwood but nothing came out. For the next few hours this seen played over and over again in the house and on the porch. Then he tummy started to swell. At the same time I was realizing that he had not laid down or napped since our potty walk. I took to the Internet and identified the situation as bloat.

Leaving bailey I ran two doors down to get j and her opinion of the situation. She was not home so I called b, crying. Nothing like calling a friend balling on Sunday afternoon. He came over to go with me to the emergency vet.

I Was actually starting to thing bailey had turned a corner and we would be in and out all my worries assuaged. This was not the case.

When the women at the front desk saw boo boo she called back for a triage nurse STAT. Saying there was a canine in severe distress. I began to cry again as they whisked him away to a back room. I was then given a bunch of papers to sign. B and I had to wait about 10 minutes doe the nurse to come out and tell us that he was not doing well and that they could not get the swelling out and would need to keep working. When the room was ready B came with me and everyone kept trying to get him to sign the sheets as I was a crying mess.

The vet finally came in and showed us the x-ray of Bailey’s belly. The stomach which is usually half a fist was the only thing in his abdomen. The vet explains how his bloat was pushing all the other organs out of the way and that he was in a lot of pain but they put him on medicine and that it would be $7,000 to open him up and try to get his stomach right but that there was no guarantee there would not be other complications and a 60% chance he would make it though the surgery. I asked he was in pain when I brought him in and he said yes a lot, his heart rated was at 220. I again started to ball and told the vet that it was his time to go. The vet agreed that was the best decision and again poor b was left in the room alone with me sobbing.

I asked to see bailey and they said I could. It was about 15 more minutes and the tech came in with more papers and said something as going wrong and that she was not sure if we could see him. At this point I was beyond crying and just sat there, finally they led us into a new room that looked like a nursing home room. I hated everything about it. B agreed. All I wanted to do with get up and walk bailey out of there, They finally rolled him in on a cart. He looked so sad. His little tongue was sticking out and his eyes were more droopy then usual. They had his bottom half covered with a blanket from where they tried to puncture his stomach and get the gas out. My happy puppy looked so sick and sad. I rubbed his ear and foot like I would at home and spent a few minutes with him. Suddenly he tried to jump up. It was very scary and you could tell he was in pain and not happy. I called down to let them know it was time. B stayed with me in the room as the vet put the medicine into his IV. I rubbed baileys ear and foot as he took his last breath.

For a dog that hated human touch I feel like I was able to make his last moments better by rubbing his eyes and ears. I will never forget the feeling in the pit of my soul when the vet said he had passed. After 13 years of giving me so much joy I hope that in those last minutes I was able to repay him.

Every time I was sick bailey was always next to me, he always knew. When I had to move to a new city where I knew no one he was there. He was there to make sure no matter how lonely I was I was never really alone.

In his passing I again knew I was not alone as all my friends rushed to my side. N, k, j, and b all came over to sit with me as I cried. B cleaned up the kitchen and put baileys bowls away. N finished my laundry and k and j made sure I ate. The 5 of us went to a bar and had a drink for bailey.

even now I have to stop my self from reaching over the side of the bed to rub his ears.

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.i.hike.

Today is a day like no other. Not only have we Lots a very important hour of sleep but I have agreed to go hiking.

Whhhhhaaaa?

Yes my new friend b. has invited me. Last weekend we went to dc and I lost my dignity, self respect (puked in an elevator filled with a young family) and most notably my wallet. He took care of me. So I am guessing hiking cannot be so bad.

Once while living in Luxembourg Jess and I went hiking in Switzerland. I believe I finished off two bottles of red win on the trip. i have a really awesome picture that proves i went hiking here is one:  there is a better one of me in action but i cannot find my cd with all the pictures on it…

I am wishing gramps was a few years younger because I know this is up his ally

here are two pics of me at the top of the hike (yeah i walked all the way to west virginia)
and to prove it was me, me in my tennies:

and if you follow me in instagram you can share your shock:

yeah… i hike!

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je.suis.désolé.

oh i am just so sorry to have been absent lately.  my life has recently become ridiculously glamorous.  my budding status as one of l-burgs must eligible has had me so busy with many suburban Friday night happy hours and my status as one of virginia’s must amazing teachers has had me busy as a little bee.

 

oh in reality

what

have

i

been doing?

 

drinking a lot with my newest gal pals kk, nf, and js (who is ALSO a miami grad), and crying while grading the papers of 13 year-olds who can not add, subtract, multiply or divide.  and not working out.  word.

oh and cleaning up dog shiz b.c grandpa got into the closet where i keep the dog food and 15lb box of milk bones from costco and while i was at work he decided to eat about 2lbs worth.  THEN SHIT ALL OVER THE NEWLY CLEANED CARPET (b.c i a v.lesbian move i rented a carpet cleaner and showed Stanley steamer how its done).

in other news…

i’ve been taking this extra class to improve my classroom management (because i cry after school every day and some times during the day) and we watched this.  and it made tears come to my eyes because he is SOOO right.

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anyway you should be crying right now and if you are not well you need a soul.

 

 

 

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.hello.again.

sorry for my LONG leave of absence.

My life has been crazy.  i would love to report that its because of a new mr. in my life but unforchantly that is NOT the case.  unless we are going to start counting gramps as my mister

how can i not love him??

since the last time i posted i have been to AMCs bachlorette party and houston for thanksgiving.  so what can i say my life is tres hard.

photo recap of the party that was fort lauderdale.  now if you follow me on twitter you saw that i missed my flight cried for 3 hours in the airport and beat out two gold teeth sisters for a seat on the plane.  when i finally arrived in FLL it was just what i needed.  fun times with my bffs!  i even got to participate in my most treasured college activity bench time (with AMC and KL)

returning home was so hard after such a great weekend (and becuase my flight was at 6am).

texas was also so much fun but much too short.  thanksgiving was a blur (i was drunk 90% of the time) but SO MUCH FUN!  cannot wait to see all my family espically little AJH again in a few short weeks.

i finally got my birthday gift from ajh.  here we are using it on dustythis could possibly be my favorite photo ever.

other then that i work 1000 hours a day and sleep.

oh and i have recently gained 500 lbs.  so i am off to the gym with my new iphone.  more on that next time i get a lazy moment!

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.SNOW!.

this was a very hard week for me.  if you follow me on twitter you saw that on Thursday my favorite coffee cup fell on the floor and shattered into a million little pieces:

this was a horribel moment and one of the very few in my life worthy of the mass text.  it went out to lisa and thug and ajh and amc.  thug called back to make sure i was not going to go postal over the issue.  lisa told me we had more and i could take one home at thanksgiving.  AMC told me to get off ebay.

all my frirends/family know me too well.

this morning was the second time in a week i had an occasion for the mass text.  after months of not sening one out 2 in one week!

what was his reason?  SNOW.  at 7am bailey woke me up and it was SNOWING. seriously i did not know we time traveled to sibera over night.

this was only 1 hour in to the day.  it has been snowing basically non stop all morning.  gramps and i are cozied up on the couch/floor sipping coffee and watching dirty soap on E!  we went to the farmers market to get some local honey and some $2  a lb apples.  i ate one and it was the most delicious apple i have ever had.  totally worth the cost!

off to do my all consuming school work.  grades are due this week and i need to get into shape for AMCs bachlorette party in Ft. Lauderdale!

if only i had a forever lazy to keep me warm on this snowy saturday:

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ajh should we get family ones for christmas this year??

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.apartment.tour.

this is part one.  aka the Tupperware before.  you know, since i barely have enough money to pay rent and have not bought any new furniture because the lovely school system thinks its ok to pay us a whole month behind.

yes, i know,i will be VERY grateful for this in 2 weeks when i get double pay checks but now its a HUGE BUMMER.  thank GAWD i have the bank of last resort out there in houston and they love me enough to give me really nice loans and allow me to exceed my debt ceiling.  you see mr. obama its really easy you and boehner (his name is really bone-er right?)  just call lisa and pa-thug.  they will help you out of this debt crisis.

also i really miss saturday night live.  esp since i have no friends in the suburbs and bailey is not allowed in bars.

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anytime i hear mr. obama this video pops into my head.

BUT I DIGRESS.  the real reason you are here is for my apartment tour.  so let it begin:

i have tried to crop out the tupperware.  its a disaster and i would like for all of you to believe that i live a REALLY CLASSY life.  please notice how i

  • don’t have a desk
  • bailey enjoys standing in my “desk” space
  • bailey REFUSES to go out onto my really nice deck and sits and stares at me from the door.
  • susan has gotten HUGE  this is what that little nugget cactus used to look like:

i will update with more (read: better) pictures as i get more furniture, hang pictures, get a desk, and if bailey ever makes it onto the deck!

if you have any decorating suggestions i would love to hear them!  esp if they involve free improvements.  and yes those are mason jars holding my matches and my q-tips.  i cannot wait to show you all the ways i am incorporating them!

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.25yoF.needsapt.dog.

could you decipher that?  that you must spend a lot of time here.  yep, that’s right i have sunk to the point of searching on craig’s list for a possible home to live in/roommate to have.

i know what you are thinking.  yes i did have an AWFUL experience with roommates off of craigs list, and yes i did say i wanted to live by myself.  but here’s the thing.  $1659 is a lot of money to pay every month.  esp when you have a background in finance and all you can think about is how you are throwing it out the window and you have SUZE ORMAN in the back of your head SCREAMING her lesbian lungs out.

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oh that’s kristen wigg my bad here is SUZE:

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i just know she would be eating me alive if she only knew the situation i was in…

so back to my roommate/housing predicament.

this is how my craig’s list add will go:

single 25yo Female teacher looking for mid-twenties female to share 2-2 apartment with.  I have a large yellow lab that is non-negotable.  he is very friendly and just lies on the ground, sometimes he moves.  this is him:

both he and i will prefer that we are either best friends or that we do not communicate with each other.  i will be in charge of all bills and i will expect you pay me your half on time.  i will also request that you never eat my food or touch my things unless i say you can.  i have some very odd personality traits and if you eat my food or touch my things i may go postal.  i enjoy getting tanked about once a moth and suggest you follow suit if you wish to not piss me off.

i have a blog. you will get a nick name and be apart of it.  you will be blasted on it if you break any rules.  if i like you i will talk about all the goodness you bring to our happy home.

i suggest that if you have a boyfriend or any male friends you make your way back to their house.  i do not like strangers in my house.  i will also have 100% veto power over anything/one you bring into our living establishment.  if you are a normal persona this will not be a problem if you are a weirdo then you should not respond to this add.  we will split the DVR 50/50 as in if i am recording something you may take the other spot, if i am recording two things you should phone a friend and have them record it for you.

Last but not least i am a really nice persona and have a great sense of style, humor and am very classy.  i enjoy dirty martinis, cooking, baking, sewing and having a good time.  I will require 3 personal references from you, including people you have lived with before.  i hope to hear from you soon!

p.s. if you really like the history channel show ancient aliens you can ignore everything above and call me asap!

well maybe i should just live alone…

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