latley i have been feeling very sedentary. everywhere i look people are growing up around me. this is the first time in my life that i truly feel in a different place then all my peers.
these feelings always pop up around my birthday, however this year they are exacerbated by my current situation. unlike years past i don’t have a plan. come may when i graduate i have no plan. is your anxiety rising, mine is at an all time high. i am 25 and without a plan. totally what i had in mind when i was 20. NOT.
comparing my life to my peers, i find all my friends living out the life i thought i would have. while they move in with significant others, get married, and get promotions in their jobs, I got to class and hang out with my mom and dad. these feelings of inferiority are compounded by my recent cash flow issue (total liquid assets: $8 including $5 on my Starbucks card) and inability to treat myself to pick me ups at local retailers.
oh well wallow fest over. i have to take K$ to some horrible awful thing that lisa and pat conveniently were to busy to take him to.
on the bight side: jersey shore is on tonight!